Sunday, March 2, 2008

I Love You, I Hate You , I Love You

I wanted to spank my son yesterday.
The one who's 16 and who is six feet tall.
Oh and maybe wring his neck too.
And I wanted to hug him and never let him go.


He had a high school band competition yesterday.
He asked if he could drive our good car to the high school (three blocks away.)
Sure. No problem.
He was all dressed up in his concert band "tuxedo" and bow tie looking very adult and handsome.


The only thing is, his girlfriend is in the high school band too.
After the concert he decided to drive her home.
She lives on a beautiful little winding road in a very nice, quiet little neighborhood.

The snow is piled high and the ice is thick on the road in her neighborhood.

After he dropped her off, he was apparently going too fast for the wintry conditions.
No.
There is no "apparently" about it.
He was going too fast.
Was too careless.
Too stupid.

The car skidded and landed on its side in a three foot ditch.

He didn't hit anyone. (Thank God.)
And he wasn't seriously hurt. (Although he had to crawl out the passenger side of the car to get out.)


We had to wait about an hour for the tow truck to come, and drag the car out.

The sheriff's deputy on the scene talked to him.
His dad talked to him.

And after we got home I screamed at him.

I hated him so much for being so young and careless and stupid.

But he's not stupid.
He's just young.
And he was full of remorse.

And after things settled down last night, we sat in the family room, and watched a movie together...my son, my husband and me.

And my son put a pillow on my lap, put his head on the pillow, and sprawled out on the couch for the duration of the film.

We were all just so grateful to be together. And to be ok...for the moment.

God, I love that big, blonde haired "goof."

Please God, protect him from himself.

2 comments:

Riverman said...

A salutary tale for all young drivers and also for parents of young drivers. My own son went one better than this several years ago; having borrowed his mother's car he drove too fast in icy conditions and managed to turn the car completely upside down and wrote it off. He, thank God, was OK and we all finished up with similar mixed emotions to yours. There was an added twist - it happened near midnight on Christmas Eve. It was a Christmas to remember!

Riverman said...

I've just enjoyed watching one of the videos from your video bar - the superb "Men in Coats". We went to see them at the York Opera House a couple of years ago. It was a hilarious show and it was great to re-visit them via your video bar. Thanks! But, where are they now? I wonder. They seem to have disappeared from the scene.